what can I say, its been a very busy week. Got a ton of work finished this week. Hell today I finished a whole weeks worth in a day. Another good episode of Fastlane tonight. Also watched Black Hawk Down. That is such a good movie, just watching it makes me wonder what is going to happen during Bush War II. Lots of American and Iraqi's killing each other. Major destabilization, and tons of bad international p.r. Yah, I know I keep talking about it, it would be easier if it had unfolded quicker. But this drawn out mess, isnt being drawn out because we wanted it that way, and regardless of what the UN finds or dont finds, the US will attack with or without the greenlight from the UN or most of our allies.....

well work sucks. nothing new there. Some days its even a wonder I dont quit. And yet I have my fun there too. I spread my subversive message like a virus and do my best to breed rebellion. Workers of the world....Get back to Work! Ah who am I kidding, with my sense of responsibilty and work ethics I couldnt lead a workers revolution. But damn its fun to set it in motion and watch the action. I should build a shrine to Loki on my monitor at work. Every now and then I send the boss junk mail and links through websites. Just to bug him. hahah....if you want to do the same check out www.funnyjunk.com for lots of lame crap, but a few gems of fun....especially You kicked my dog and Arnold prank calls.

..another Alias Sunday...and another hot scene with Jennifer Garner...this time a nice wet bikini. And yes again a good story-line with action. They even through in a lil Han Solo moment when Ethan Hawkes character was blinded but shot at a guy anyway. Speaking of Han Solo, when in the F*ck is George Lucas going to release the other Star Wars films on DVD? What is he waiting for? Probably until the first 3 episodes are out and have gone into a box set. Then wait about 2 years then come out with a box set of all 6 films. Cant decide if I want to see Daredevil, it has Jennifer Garner, but then we have Mrs. Ben Damon Lopez in it. But Daredevil was an interesting comic, yet its always a gamble with comics going to movies.

...just got back from the gym. early work out is much better than late at night. Maybe I'll try tuesday morning for a workout before work. Zoolander is on tv. Ben Stiller is funny, but this movie has SNL contamination all over it.

...my head hurts. its stress again. i really need a vacation. I wanted to just drive down to Mexico today, drink beers and eat chips and salsa on a beach somewhere. Instead I went to the grocery store and stared at all the beers, until I decided to skip it and just get some food and go home. Didnt want to drink myself into a stupor this evening...ok thats not true, I did, but I decided not to. Drinking at home alone would be sad. And drinking out in a bar would only get me slapped in the face or a DUI , and I dont need either. Burned some incense and just sat and meditated for a bit. That helped, but still feel tense. Much better than yesterday, felt very angry. And I am not the type to get angry often, and when I do, I dont get physically violent. And certainly wouldnt hurt anyone I care for. But it was a boiling feeling. Talking about it with Cheyenne helped a lot. Its good to have someone close you can talk to. It helps to write too. Though not as much fun as drinking your problems away...

Space shuttle....what a tragedy. 7 astronauts, all dead. And the families just watching it fall. And with one of them being an Israeli, you can only imagine what will follow. Assholes who hate Israel will jump on this. And then we have the long investigations into how this happened. Just awful. I remember as a kid, we were in school when the first shuttle went up, and all the classrooms had gathered to watch it on tv. Things will slow down, but I would hate to see a long break in NASA activities.

What a day. So glad the weekend is here and that I got paid today. Seems like people just cant get over themselves sometimes. Dont they ever realize that they arent the most important being with the most important things to do in this world? I see these people when they drive, no sense of anyone else on the road. At work, no sense that other people have things to do as well. I know its just the way they are. Selfish. And they have a right to be. But they also cant expect me to like it or to put up with it. Course, I prefer it when people underestimate me. T.R. really had the right idea about walking softly and carrying a big stick. Anyhoo. Its going to be a relaxing weekend. I plan on working in the garage and pulling out some books and papers and organzing them. I am such a pack rat. I have biology notes from my freshman year in high school. When I first moved back here, I still had PC games from our old 8086 back when DOS 5.0 was the way and you were lucky if your graphics card and monitor had 4 colors. I held on to them for sentiments sake. But I made progress and was able to throw em away. Though I will hang on to our old Atari 2600 heheh.

Well some asshole at work hasnt come in the past two days and now his work is being divided among several of us. And I had no clue what he was doing or how. Yet now I have to manage his crap. I cant stand people who dont take care of their responsibilities. At least have the balls to call in and quit.Ugh...But if I pull through and help out the boss until they hire someone new, I will have moved that much closer to more money in March. Always climbing one branch higher in the tree for my share of the bananas....ah how far we have evolved.

Seems like this week has gone by fast, and yet its only Wednesday. I could use a vacation, I have been thinking of going on a cruise or to some tropical island. Hell at the very least I should drive up the coast and visit my folks. Sit on their patio, read a book and look at the ocean, with the sun on my face. Ah how I envy them. One day that will be my life. Until then work and plan.

Home at a decent hour for a change, and in plenty of time to watch President Bush #2 make his "golly gee i dont wanna have to go to war, but Saddam is a bad man and started it first" speech. Oh and lets not forget about the Big Tax Cut. Gotta make the case for that. I cant wait to hear how he can justify deficit spending and increasing the national debt all in a desperate effort to jump start the economy.....poor kid, he should never have stopped drinking.

another long day, busy at work and then busy working out. I think in a couple weeks we will try to start working out in the morning before work. I really hate losing the rest of my day, and getting home after eleven isnt fun. So it means another night wound up and restless. Ah well I can catch up on my reading...laterz

.....Alias was good tonight...not just Jennifer Garner in lingere, but the twists in the story-line and the action..wow. That show just rocks. During summers when I was a kid, I used to love watching Mission Impossible. The ones with Leonard Nimoy were always good. He was the master of disguise.I was really excited when they remade the tv show in the late 80's, but it just didnt catch. I keep seeing these ads for the new Dragnet, but I dont know, it looks like LAPD Blue to me. Joe Friday, was tough and gruff but he was a straight arrow. The whole roughing up suspects thing just didnt happen. Of course back then he could just threaten some punk with 3 years in jail, and they would usually crack. These days that wouldnt work on anyone but some kid shoplifting.

It was such a beautiful day today, it was in the low 80's though it felt like mid 70's. Put on some shorts and sandals and went out to do laundry and get a sandwich from the deli next door. The sandwich was good, but the pickles they put on the side...yuck...they were not even pickled long...I have excellent senses, and very few things get past me, and I could tell just by the taste that it was still a cucumber....I call that premature pickling..... While I was folding laundry I watched Fools Rush In, Salma is such a goddess. The movie is funny and sweet, but with Salma in it, it really gets to me. Between that and the movie Entropy I am determined to just get married in Vegas to someone I hardly know. Course she will have to be hot.

Sometimes it would be nice to just shut off and not think for awhile. Can't seem to do it though, unless I meditate and try to relax...and I cant seem to relax lately. Which is probably best, I need to stay active and motivated. That way I can reorganize things at work...among other things.

Another busy day. My Staples rep called and invited me to a LA Kings game, courtesy of Staples. I am really excited about that. I haven't been to a hockey game since I lived in Fresno. So it should be a lot of fun. Invited my friend Eric to go. There will even be a little party before the game. It's about time I get some good free stuff.

TUESDAY---its late, and I should go to bed, but too wired. Mentally drained though, spent lots of time at work again, then worked out. Didn't get home until after 10 then hopped in the shower, and as I was getting out phone was ringing. It's nice to have someone to talk to at the end of my day, or night. I dont even care what I missed on TV tonight. It's just not as important as taking care of myself and hanging out with my friends. Thats what a VCR is for. But I would like to get home earlier so I can eat dinner. Will probably just have some juice and then go to bed. I can update my Quicken file tomorrow and pay my bills then. Too out of it to think...

a friend of mine emailed to let me know she won two free tickets to a Rolling Stones concert to raise awareness for global warming. And it just so happens my mom emailed a link to win a dream home. So I figured why not take a chance. Would be nice to win a dream home, retire and live my life in peace and quiet. I see lots of contests online, I am sure most of them are just to grab email addresses and crap like that. But you never know what life has in store for us.

...couldnt decide this morning which Sunday morning talk-fest to watch. All spouting the same crap. Nothing like some mindless entertainment to distract me from all this. Watched Triple X. Was better than I had thought, but still pretty silly. Asia Argento has a smokin lil body, as well as the chick who dances for Vin, makes me want to be an International Man of Mystery.... Was funny it began and ended like a Bond film. I knew I should have gone to film school. I could have been the next Roger Corman...

...reading about peoples thoughts on the Second Bush War. Amazing how many people miss the big picture. Bush #1 was smarter than his son. As least Bush#1 knew enough about international relations to know that we need the cooperation of Arab and Islamic Nations. And the first Persian Gulf war was about pushing Saddam out of Kuwait, not meddling in the affairs of other nations or trying to overthrow a dictator. Absolutely amazing that Bush #2 has such a hard-on for war that he disregards what is best for America. Find Bin Laden first. Then lets talk about Saddam. Who will replace Saddam? IF we choose that person, then he lacks credibility and may be overthrown much like the Shah of Iran was. I sorta feel bad for Bush #2, the way the "War on Terrorism" has gone, the way the economy is in the toilet (and has been since BEFORE 9-11), all he needs now is Persian Gulf War #2 to seal his fate and he will follow in his daddy's footsteps. Well whatever happens, dont blame me, I accidently voted for Pat Buchanan......

what a way to spend saturday, going in to help someone at work most of the day. We still have a lot to do, but its coming along nicely. I will sleep in tomorrow. Then I can get some things done around the house. Plus buy some more workout clothes and a brace for my knee, before it pops out. I still need to burn a copy of a few games to send to Cheyenne. Just cant seem to get them to work out just write. Damn copy protection. When I get my next computer I will fix this one up to just copy and edit music, and movies. Well time to make some dinner and enjoy whats left of my saturday.