I am stuffed. I just returned from a surprise birthday party for a friend from work. Carne asada, salsa, tamales, mmmmm. Good food. I didn't drink much just had a shot of the Bushmills I bought for my friend and a shot of some German grape brandy he had. It was a pretty small group so there wasn't any beer, just sodas and good bbq'd carne asada. It was very mellow for everyone. Which is good because I certainly don't want to drink or eat too much just for the sake of a party or having a good time.
Well I am off to watch MAD TV before I go to bed. Today was an early and productive day and I plan on doing the same tomorrow, getting up early and running errands and doing chores around the house. And later of course watch some TV and maybe look over some wishlists for books and cd's or dvd's. I want to continue to build my libraries and I have neglected my music collection in favor of movies and books. But lately I have wanted to get more music. I used to have a good list somewhere but since I don't listen to the radio at home anymore, just the car, I don't jot down ideas anymore.
It's always easier to hear a song and then remember that you don't have that album, but you should buy it, than to just sit and try to think of albums you want out of the blue.

Ah, such a wonderful day. More ridiculous shit at work causing me grief. But the upside today is that the GM is seeing more of it and is getting a more clear picture of the way things are. I forgot to put on my calendar that I had a lunch appointment with my hot milfy Staples rep. so that was a nice surprise today. I always look forward to having her take me out to lunch. Had a perfect steak and I didn't have to pay for it. So that killed two hours today. I did refrain from reminding her that last year when we had lunch during a conversation that drifted to politics, she said "well you will see they will find the weapons of mass destruction." Ah even then I knew the truth. It would be interesting to have heard her excuse for Bush though.
But when a hot older woman buys you lunch it's not polite to perform an "I told you so", as much as I enjoy those.
After work went out for a beer with some work friends, then off to the cafe for a bit. Good times.
I arrived home in time to shower and then sit back and watch Femme Fatale starring Rebecca Romijn. Not bad, what you would expect from Brian De Palma of course. Plus there is the hot sexy scene in the beginning of the movie.
Listening to some good music and looking forward to a productive yet relaxing weekend. Some days life is good. Other days, it is even better than good.

Sometimes there is so much to say but you just don't know how to express it all. Or should you even express all of it? What will I think of this time, this moment when I am 40. Or 50. Will I be satisfied with the way that I have spent this time, or will I wish i had cherished this time more?
You know in the movie Back to the Future when Michael J. Fox looks at the picture of his brother and sister and they fade, well I get that feeling sometimes. The only difference is my feeling is in reverse, that is my vision is of what the future holds(held) for me. And I see things fading from that.
Yet I know too much about self-fulfilling prophecies. We tend to create our own worlds based on the conceptions we have, and this limits us. Sometimes we think this is all we deserve, or all we are capable of. And so we let things slip through our grasp. While there are just somethings we have no control over, there are so many more things we control than we give ourselves credit for.
So when I feel this way, i just ask myself WWYS?
And I feel renewed in my drive to realize the goals at hand.
To a greater degree than we would admit, we create our own future and choose our own path. And where ever that may end, I know I will enjoy it along the way.
Except for work though, cuz work sucks donkeyballs.