It was a very hot day today. In the high 80's. It wasnt too bad at home, nice ocean breeze to cool things down, but I went inland a bit to go to the movies, and I swear it felt like the middle of summer more than the beginning of spring. I wasnt much surprised by the suicide bombing in Iraq today at a checkpoint. Its the occupation that will be tough. When people talk of a "new Marshall Plan" or compare rebuilding Iraq to Japan and Germany after WWII....they tend to forget that the people of Japan and Germany had been at war for over 5 years, and by the time the Allies/US occupied them, they had enough. As I said before, we can look forward to the kind of problems the Israelis face. The whole idea that just because the people hate Saddam means they will embrace us is insane. Its funny because for so many years the Republicans have screamed against 'nation building' and 'policing the world'. And yet here we are......Ah well, I will watch South Park and feel much better. Jimmy and Timmy join the Crips, thinking its for handicap people....funny stuff. Was thinking the other how much fun it would be to give Crank Yankers our corporate presidents phone number. The other day he had a sandwich and left it out, it stayed out in the kitchen for two days, so I put it on his desk. It felt so good. I heard from someone that he wasnt happy about it when he actually had to throw it away himself. The lazy bastard. I have seen him do this before. It gets old. And its worse when he makes coffee, god what a mess he makes. Then always leaves his dirty dishes around. I have already thought about what to do on Tuesday...April 1st. Ah how I love a good April Fools Day joke......

I am voting for General Wesley Clark if he runs...I wish he would anchor the latenight CNN news and not Aaron Brown...I feel so bad for these people who lose family in the War and have some dip-shit anchor asking them lame questions. Obviously the family agrees to an interview to honor the memory of the ones lost and to keep that memory alive and to share it with others. But why the hell cant the anchors stop being so damned stupid?....Ok enough of that.....Feel tired today, weather is getting warmer, we are supposed to have Santa Ana winds tomorrow and Saturday....ugh. Always dry and hot, and makes me sneeze, not a lot of fun. Normally we get ocean breezes from west to east, but the Santa Ana winds blow from the south up against the Santa Ana mountains and then blows east to west....I am looking forward to this weekend, its been one of those weeks.

It's not that I only get my news from Comedy Central's Daily Show with John Stewart...it's just that I like the spin they put on it. And their coverage of the War in Iraq has been great. Its a less paranoid version of some of what Michael Moore would think. I certainly dont think this is some great conspiracy, but c'mon Haliburton, just got a contract to rebuild oil pipelines in Iraq. And while it doesnt have to result in some federal investigation, it is nice to see that some people at least raise a few eyebrows about it. Any....listen to the news and every attack by Iraqi's is not an attack its an "ambush". Like somehow they arent supposed to do that. Although the other dirty tricks they use, will only result in US forces showing less mercy and kindness. ....It still amazes me how the Media keeps saying that there are 'setbacks' and tougher resistance than expected. I cant imagine that the Pentagon didnt expect even more resistance. Invading and securing a country of 24 million people can't be easy and accomplished in a week or two. The fact that we, and yes I think of it as we.., the fact that we are so damn close to Baghdad is a testament to our well trained and well equipped armed forces. Before this started, it was my opinion that going to war and potentially sacrificing American lives to get Saddam was not worth it. It wouldnt have been my decision if I was the president....yet it's been decided by the president..fundamentalist-narrow-minded-cowboy that he is.....And now that we are there it would be nice if protestors would write themselves a reminder to VOTE during elections in the first place. And I know most of them didnt vote in 2000. How stupid can they be? Yah, I was against GOING to war...but once we have committed forces, and worse, lost American lives over it, Damn if we are going to sign a truce, and come back home for nothing. And cant't the media just shut up and stop reporting long enough to think. I HATE Aaron Brown on CNN. That schmuck is so freekin stupid. I cant stand him. Only thing worse on CNN is Larry King. That cadaver is even more annoying......
....Oh and as much as Bush#2 is anti-UN I hope he has the sense to allow the UN more of a role in rebuilding Iraq. That is the only way we can gain some credibility and more important....UN peacekeepers. Hopefully from Pakistan....Why? You ask....Because take a look at Palestine or worse, Lebanon in the 80's. The last thing we need is US soldiers occupying Iraq. We will have more suicide bombers trying to take out US positions and personnel. Pakistan is well known for its peacekeeping forces...and they are Muslim...albeit not Arabs...but they would not face the kind of violent opposition that US men and women would.That is where the real risks lie....Just think about it...it makes sense. More sense than HUGE tax cuts and increased spending while the government runs in the red.....damn cowboy.

Well I wish I didnt have to mention the War in Iraq, but its difficult to avoid thinking of it for more than a few hours. Although watching The Princess Bride on cable was quite a nice break from hearing about the war. That is one of my all-time favorite movies. Excellent book too. Though you get more of the emotional impact from the movie and the theme of true love...as mythical as that is. But I was able to not think about the war for a bit. Looks like there are protests in every country now. Its really sad, how Bush#2 has no concept of P.R., Sprite is full of shit, because Image does count. And right now we have a bad image to the eyes of the world. And blah blah all you want about Terror or Saddam, or protecting America...we have gone about it the wrong way. Sure sometimes you have to do the right thing no matter what others think...but we dont live in a vacuum. We live in a world where we have to deal with other nations and their people. And pissing them off to such an extent is just bad for our national interests. Oh and can they stop calling it a Coalition? The USA and the UK...DO NOT qualify as a coalition anymore than Ringo and Paul are the Beatles. With the coalition and Axis, I think that Bush#2 didnt do so well in school. He's always grabbing these terms to create some link to the past. What Bush#2 really needs is to get drunk, do a few lines and lighten up like he used to.

Ok, so we have begun the conquest of Iraq.....Now sure I think our motives....well not "ours" as in mine or maybe yours, but rather Bush #2's motives.....I think the motives really are based on revenge and hatred agasint Saddam, as well as making Daddy Bush #1 proud. I mean I know that a lot of my life has been guided by making my parents proud and to gain and keep their acceptance..as well as the inheritance...anyway.....So Bush#2's motives are also, a true desire to keep America safe...yah I dont like him, but I think he believes he is doing what is best for America, I dont doubt that, but we also have Oil. The fact that rebuilding Iraq contracts are going to be given to his contributors is obviously a factor......But my main point here is whatever I think about his motives, and the fact that I think we shouldnt be starting a war......I think that since the decision was made to take over Iraq last summer, and make no mistake, it was well decided and written in stone this would happen during the summer. Everything else has just been leading to this.......Anyway, its been decided, lets do it, do it right, and prevail. Im not so against it that I will march, and once the fighting starts I'll be damned if I want to see anything other than total victory with minimum loss of life...on both sides.
The rebuilding process will be long and tough. Especially when a year from now people grow weary and we dont completely instil in the Iraqi people the ideals of democracy. Afghanistan is a prime example...after the Soviets left the US should have done more to help them rebuild, instead we left the door open for the Taliban. I just dont want to see the same shit again, with the US putting in an unstable puppet, then walking away as reactionary and fundamentalists revolt and we end up with a regime worse than Saddam.
Well, I hope all goes well.

So I am thinking that its time we just get on with this war, take over Iraq, give out those fat contracts to Bush's Buddies to rebuild the very same things we will bomb, and get gas prices back down to the low prices we demand. All this waiting and back and forth crap is silly. The decision was made in the summer, the rest is just a pretense so we dont look like war mongers. Bush #1 got away with it in Panama, so its only likely that Bush #2 thinks it will be a cakewalk....

Watching 'Entropy'...best part of the movie is just the idea of marrying a complete stranger. Not like Married by America...Its sad how they call it reality TV when there is nothing real about ANY of those shows, with the exception of COPS, hell most times I doubt the News is real. Anyhoo, so the guy in the movie meets this chick at a party, and decides they should just get married and see how it works from there. I think its a brilliant idea. Completely nutty but brilliant at the same time. By the way, its not the main story line it the movie, just something I have always liked about it. Although he married a chick who sucks her thumb and holds her 'raggie' LOL. My ex used to have her childhood blanket, god it was awful, that was a raggie. This movie also employs the use of a talking cat who smokes. Which brings to mind 'Ruben & Ed' with Cripsin Glover.Oh yah cant wait to see Willard. That is one freeeeky dude. The movie involves his quest to bury his dead cat, who used to water ski and as he likes to brag, could eat a whole watermelon. If you can ever find it, rent it. You'll be sorry and glad u did at the same time.

Ok, so the new pc is running smoothly now. Just need to add a case fan because the video card is heating things up. I am so freekin sick of hearing about Michael Jackson. I dont give a damn if he throws his kid from a balcony or takes a bath in Clorox. Lets just try and concentrate on the real important issues today, The O.J. errr I mean Robert Blake trial. Few weeks ago I ranted about how people cling to their lies, well this man has wrapped himself so tightly with his, you'd think Martha Stewart gift wrapped the poor slob.

Well, my new computer arrived. My roommate was cool enough to lend me his XP disc, and today I took it for a test drive. Looks and runs great, especially for the deal I got. More than likely I will upgrade the sound and video card within the next 6months. But I am in no hurry. I have to figure out what to do about having two computers. I dont have enough room to run them side by side like my roommate does, and if I just move my spare hard drive from the old one to the new one, then I can get rid of the old Emachine. Its still a great pc, it just doesnt have the speed and capacity for the fun stuff.....
......Nice early day for me. Dropped the boss off at the airport, and just went home from there. Which gives me time to do some cleaning before my father comes to visit. I havent seen him since Christmas, which I kinda feel bad about not visiting the folks more often. When I was teaching I used to have much more time to take mini-vacations. Of course now I have more money to take bigger vacations. Should be able to take a trip to New York by May and might still be able to head over to Spain by September. I just need to manage my time better and I could even get to travel to some of our other offices around the country. Then I can be like one of those Lifetime movie guys who has a families in like 6 different cities.

It strikes me as funny sometimes just how stupid people can be. It almost seems like they put a lot of effort into it. As though stupidity was a badge and they wear it proudly. I prefer honesty stupidity over dishonest stupidity though. Like when people lie to you and yet you know for certain what the truth is, and yet they still cling to their lies like a warm blanket. And there is no shortage of these people. Not that intelligent people are any better, just as many of them are ruled by greed, selfishness, immaturity and other such flaws....Yah I'm in one of those moods. At times I feel surrounded by these people.....as well South Park will make it seem better.

Went to the movies and saw Daredevil. Was suprisingly better than I thought it would be. And of course Jennifer Garner was superhot in it. Finalized my purchase of a new computer on ebay. Was a pretty good deal, consulted a couple friends of mine who have put systems together and they both agreed it was a great buy. Now I can hardly wait to get it and try it out. Will prolly have to put in a different sound card though. That is really the only thing against it. But at that price, paying for a sound card is no big deal. Can probably find the one I want on ebay. I am also in a great mood today, not like a happy mood, but a great mood in that I am motivated and getting some things done at work and at home. No one will ever take care of you except yourself.

Beautiful rainy day today. Nothing makes me quite as happy as rain. Days like this I miss being a kid and going to Disneyland on a day like this. No lines, just run through the rides over and over. Work is going well, accomplished so much last week, had about 3 hours to kill doing nothing today. Course, I would have actually liked to get more work done. Mostly so I can do nothing on Friday. Yanno spend a romantic Valentines day alone with myself. Course Daredevil comes out Friday. So I may have to go see that. Jennifer Garner as Elektra...mmmmm. Movie will prolly be lame though. Ah well at least there will be some cool trailers to see.

what can I say, its been a very busy week. Got a ton of work finished this week. Hell today I finished a whole weeks worth in a day. Another good episode of Fastlane tonight. Also watched Black Hawk Down. That is such a good movie, just watching it makes me wonder what is going to happen during Bush War II. Lots of American and Iraqi's killing each other. Major destabilization, and tons of bad international p.r. Yah, I know I keep talking about it, it would be easier if it had unfolded quicker. But this drawn out mess, isnt being drawn out because we wanted it that way, and regardless of what the UN finds or dont finds, the US will attack with or without the greenlight from the UN or most of our allies.....

well work sucks. nothing new there. Some days its even a wonder I dont quit. And yet I have my fun there too. I spread my subversive message like a virus and do my best to breed rebellion. Workers of the world....Get back to Work! Ah who am I kidding, with my sense of responsibilty and work ethics I couldnt lead a workers revolution. But damn its fun to set it in motion and watch the action. I should build a shrine to Loki on my monitor at work. Every now and then I send the boss junk mail and links through websites. Just to bug him. hahah....if you want to do the same check out www.funnyjunk.com for lots of lame crap, but a few gems of fun....especially You kicked my dog and Arnold prank calls.

..another Alias Sunday...and another hot scene with Jennifer Garner...this time a nice wet bikini. And yes again a good story-line with action. They even through in a lil Han Solo moment when Ethan Hawkes character was blinded but shot at a guy anyway. Speaking of Han Solo, when in the F*ck is George Lucas going to release the other Star Wars films on DVD? What is he waiting for? Probably until the first 3 episodes are out and have gone into a box set. Then wait about 2 years then come out with a box set of all 6 films. Cant decide if I want to see Daredevil, it has Jennifer Garner, but then we have Mrs. Ben Damon Lopez in it. But Daredevil was an interesting comic, yet its always a gamble with comics going to movies.

...just got back from the gym. early work out is much better than late at night. Maybe I'll try tuesday morning for a workout before work. Zoolander is on tv. Ben Stiller is funny, but this movie has SNL contamination all over it.

...my head hurts. its stress again. i really need a vacation. I wanted to just drive down to Mexico today, drink beers and eat chips and salsa on a beach somewhere. Instead I went to the grocery store and stared at all the beers, until I decided to skip it and just get some food and go home. Didnt want to drink myself into a stupor this evening...ok thats not true, I did, but I decided not to. Drinking at home alone would be sad. And drinking out in a bar would only get me slapped in the face or a DUI , and I dont need either. Burned some incense and just sat and meditated for a bit. That helped, but still feel tense. Much better than yesterday, felt very angry. And I am not the type to get angry often, and when I do, I dont get physically violent. And certainly wouldnt hurt anyone I care for. But it was a boiling feeling. Talking about it with Cheyenne helped a lot. Its good to have someone close you can talk to. It helps to write too. Though not as much fun as drinking your problems away...

Space shuttle....what a tragedy. 7 astronauts, all dead. And the families just watching it fall. And with one of them being an Israeli, you can only imagine what will follow. Assholes who hate Israel will jump on this. And then we have the long investigations into how this happened. Just awful. I remember as a kid, we were in school when the first shuttle went up, and all the classrooms had gathered to watch it on tv. Things will slow down, but I would hate to see a long break in NASA activities.

What a day. So glad the weekend is here and that I got paid today. Seems like people just cant get over themselves sometimes. Dont they ever realize that they arent the most important being with the most important things to do in this world? I see these people when they drive, no sense of anyone else on the road. At work, no sense that other people have things to do as well. I know its just the way they are. Selfish. And they have a right to be. But they also cant expect me to like it or to put up with it. Course, I prefer it when people underestimate me. T.R. really had the right idea about walking softly and carrying a big stick. Anyhoo. Its going to be a relaxing weekend. I plan on working in the garage and pulling out some books and papers and organzing them. I am such a pack rat. I have biology notes from my freshman year in high school. When I first moved back here, I still had PC games from our old 8086 back when DOS 5.0 was the way and you were lucky if your graphics card and monitor had 4 colors. I held on to them for sentiments sake. But I made progress and was able to throw em away. Though I will hang on to our old Atari 2600 heheh.

Well some asshole at work hasnt come in the past two days and now his work is being divided among several of us. And I had no clue what he was doing or how. Yet now I have to manage his crap. I cant stand people who dont take care of their responsibilities. At least have the balls to call in and quit.Ugh...But if I pull through and help out the boss until they hire someone new, I will have moved that much closer to more money in March. Always climbing one branch higher in the tree for my share of the bananas....ah how far we have evolved.