Sometimes there is so much to say but you just don't know how to express it all. Or should you even express all of it? What will I think of this time, this moment when I am 40. Or 50. Will I be satisfied with the way that I have spent this time, or will I wish i had cherished this time more?
You know in the movie Back to the Future when Michael J. Fox looks at the picture of his brother and sister and they fade, well I get that feeling sometimes. The only difference is my feeling is in reverse, that is my vision is of what the future holds(held) for me. And I see things fading from that.
Yet I know too much about self-fulfilling prophecies. We tend to create our own worlds based on the conceptions we have, and this limits us. Sometimes we think this is all we deserve, or all we are capable of. And so we let things slip through our grasp. While there are just somethings we have no control over, there are so many more things we control than we give ourselves credit for.
So when I feel this way, i just ask myself WWYS?
And I feel renewed in my drive to realize the goals at hand.
To a greater degree than we would admit, we create our own future and choose our own path. And where ever that may end, I know I will enjoy it along the way.
Except for work though, cuz work sucks donkeyballs.